30 and ready for it

Today, I am 30 years old. In the past few months, as a new decade began to rise up to meet me, I did not meet it with excitement and anticipation. I met it with stubborn resistance. I wasn't ready for all I felt 30 entailed. A new decade felt like little more than a … Continue reading 30 and ready for it

The permanence of things

Two years ago today, I left my life in Thailand for a new one in the States. After a whirlwind year and a half, I had reached the limit of chaos I could handle in my life. I was ready for stability, consistency, and a place to call home. It's been 20 months now since … Continue reading The permanence of things

2019: The Year of Caitlin

2018 was a veritable crapshoot of a year. From tooth extractions to head injuries to funerals and changing jobs, it's not really a year I'm looking to repeat. 2019, I've decided, is going to be my year. It's been three months since I've written anything. Sometimes the thought of sharing my life with the world … Continue reading 2019: The Year of Caitlin

On Gratitude

Thanksgiving is an odd time of year. People who are normally grouchy and pessimistic suddenly become overwhelmed with gratitude for the blessings in their lives. Good health, plenty of food, family and friends in abundance. The season of thankfulness and cheer is one that brings even the most curmudgeonly folks out of their funk and … Continue reading On Gratitude

How well you walk through the fire

As seems so often the case, this week my thoughts are tied up in the difficulty of life. This year has been a tremendously difficult one. And I know I have spoken to that effect here before, and I by no means want to be known as a complainer. But the truth is, life is … Continue reading How well you walk through the fire


I started working out three weeks ago. The saga of how I came to be a workout person starts with who I am at my center: a lazy person. A while back I was watching the show Younger (read: binge-watching), and that spiraled me into a weird Instagram rabbit hole of stalking the main characters. … Continue reading Becoming

Here’s to 29

My 29th birthday was on Saturday, marking the last home stretch before a new decade beckons, full of unknowns and brimming with potential.One year left of the addled carefree life of a 20-something. It feels harder to pretend you’re just a young adult trying to figure things out when you’re in your 30s. Birthdays to … Continue reading Here’s to 29

On a year without alcohol

In early 2017, I had been living in Thailand for over a year. I was, by all outside accounts, living the dream. My carefree life involved weekend trips to other countries, gourmet Thai food for $2 a plate, afternoons spent at beautiful waterfalls, nights spent playing at bars with the band. I was living the … Continue reading On a year without alcohol

A Work in Progress

I always used to have a picture in my head of what my life would look like as an adult. I imagined it in vague detail, like a painting observed from far away. I'd be successful, I'd be happy. I'd have a pet and a husband or partner and a job I liked. I'd have … Continue reading A Work in Progress

11 months of normal

I was reflecting this week on the fact that it's been almost an entire year since I moved back to the States. Stability is hard for me; it always has been. Once I'm in a place for a few months I inevitably start thinking of where to go next. Even in places I've lived for … Continue reading 11 months of normal